Nope, this is not going anywhere. The more I try, the more I realize I don’t need anyone but myself, as it says under my horoscope…lol.

The funny thing is, he said he doesn’t like girls that lead ppl on. The day after we went out, he’s in a relationship?! lol…hell yeah I’d like to be single. Seen too many ppl say one thing then do the completely opposite.

I’m fine just by myself, and actually much more happier.

整夜輾轉反側未能入眠, 翻閱舊日誌, 想到了從前的種種。

這四年來, 曾對自己許下無數次諾言說要放棄那段吃力不討好的關係, 但誠諾過後換來只是不斷的重蹈覆轍。 軟弱的我, 讓悲劇一再重演。

直到上個月, 終能從惡夢中醒過來, 完完全全看清他的為人, 實在無一可取。 不懂人情世故, 終日沉迷玩樂, 經常無故生氣, 自以為是, 令身邊朋友討厭也不知。

每個人都有權選擇自己的生活方式, 但我無法認同他的做法。

對他, 我是又愛又恨。
對他, 我是可有可無。
對他, 我是徹底失望。

值得安慰的是, 我把自己解脫了。

全球五十九億萬人, 我們能夠相遇, 相識, 相知, 可算是有緣, 可惜我們緣盡了。

有一段新感情正在等我, 相信這次真的可以徹底將包袱放下, 我已為他付出了太多, 錯失了太多。 雖然有點壓力, 但經過溝通對方也明白我的想法。 我還須要時間復原, 太衝動對他不公平, 對我也沒有好處. 一切順其自然好了。

This problem is happening yet again. I haven’t been able to sleep at my usual sleeping time lately. I’m not even sure what the cause of this is. I tried to read, tried to close my eyes, tried to count sheeps. None works. Sigh…when can I go back to my normal schedule? zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz